Lyrics
It feels so very strange
That it could be this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why you want to stay
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue
Look, Is it okay to feel like running away
for days till somebody wanna say something
Is it ok to feel shitty and
overwhelmed by everything and anything coming
Is it ok to feel like I'm not quite ok I been feeling pain
Make it go away sleep is my escape dreamin it up
To wake up and find I really mean nothing
I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed
And it took me a minute to realize that they are in my head
And they're giving me panic attacks and anxiety I'm seeing red
I'm really just fed up it feels like I'm living in Hell
And I'm walking around like I'm dead cuz my face is just lifeless
I'm fighting for everyone never will
I ever be fought for in the end I need
A little bit of happiness why am I so inadequate
Demon I'm always battling, damn
They always be attacking shit
I ain't really havin' it
I'm always on my saddest shit, damn
I'm a mother fucking addict
I don't mean to be dramatic
No one ever really had to give a damn
The love that they be giving me a scam
God damn come watch me pop another fucking xan, shit
It feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why you want to stay
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you
This negativity
It keeps me feeling blue
I feel so blue I always lose
I be steady trippin' gotta tie my shoes
When I need you you respond so slow
When you need me I'm in the call like proto
I don't like to talk because I'm anti-social
You already know though zero friends in total
I don't even smile in the mother fucking photos
That I post on the 'gram cause I don't give a damn about shit now
I can fucking disappear and everybody lit now
I'ma sit down and take a hit now
Every now and then I take a mother fucking sip now
Grrrt pow bumpin Lil Tjay
Crying in the club on my god damn b-day
Drive too fast on the god damn freeway
Heart is up for sale so I put it on eBay
He say, she say, they all fucking monsters
They say they your friends but they always imposters
The only way that I'ma prosper is with zero friends on my roster
Someone call the doctor my flows too sick I'm off-topic
Sucker for pain, but I got logic
When fake people wanna hop on my dick
And they stab my back and they talk they shit and they talk they crap
I just take they hits, damn
It feels so very strange
That it could be this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why you want to stay
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue
(Doo doo do-do doo
Doo doo do-do doo
Doo doo do-do doo)