Sober

Yeah, feeling sick again
Swore the last time was the last time
But look at me on a slip, again
Wish I was different, but it's always the same
So strained, a feeling of that withdrawal pain
And all my friends, they don't understand
It's been a minute since you got a bag, maybe it wasn't that bad
And you can just have one now
And I'll be taking one balloon so high, I'll never come down (come down)

So, wake me when it's over, I got to try to fix this
I'll call you when I'm sober, or when I'm not resistant
I'm sorry that you love me, I know you hate it
Fucked up when I stopped being grateful, and got complacent
I'm only high 'cause I been feeling this low
And that's the only make it back to normal, I suppose
And I know you think I'm perfect, but all of that's a facade
And trying to hide how I been feeling, is lonelier than I thought (thought)

So, put the bottle down, I really don't trust what I do
I make the worst decisions sober that's the fucking truth
'Cause I don't take the first hit when I'm already blitzed
I take it clear-headed, uncomfortable in my fucking skin (skin)
You don't know what I've done
I swear to God that if you did, then your heart would be broken into a million pieces
Had it all, but I lost it in a blink
Afraid to ask for help 'cause I'm afraid of what you think

Mama, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me, for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road, before
(I'm sorry) I'm so sorry, I'm not sober, anymore
(Ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

And I'm just hoping for some happy in the end
Trying to be a hero, I can't even save my friends
You don't know where I'm at, or where I'm going, where I've been
So, don't try to pretend (don't try to pretend)
I've got an itch, I'll never scratch, but I'm going, until I bleed
Like, who the fuck are you to tell me what you think I really need?
'Cause I've awoken up a beast that never stops, until it feeds
And it's been eating me alive, inside my dreams

And I don't mean to make you nervous when you think of me
Everybody is leaving me, it's hard to find someone to relate with me, on this frequency
I'm sitting in another meeting on the west side
Raising my hand again, this was not the plan again
Just sick of being sick, what's that insanity?
Like it'll be different this time, but, it's never different though
And it doesn't happen quick, it happens gradually
I never thought that life would be this fucking difficult (difficult)

Just got a feeling I'm losing, and maybe that's a fact
Maybe, these feelings are feelings I shouldn't treat as facts
Like, it'll pass, if you just try to let it go
But you will never understand the way it gets when I'm alone, no
I don't know how to love, I swear to God that if I did, your heart wouldn't be broken into a million pieces
Had it all, but lost it in a blink
Afraid to ask for help 'cause, I'm afraid of what you think

Mama, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober, anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road, before
(I'm sorry) I'm so sorry, I'm not sober, anymore
(Ooh-ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

I can't do this all on my own (on my own)
You're never too far gone, to come back home (come back home)
I can't do this all on my own (on my own)
You're never too far gone, to come back home (come back home)
I can't do this all on my own (on my own)
You're never too far gone, to come back home (come back home)