歌词
How am I supposed to be fine?
I'm one step forward, five behind
I try my best but I'm still a fucking mess
Guess I'm destructive by design
Somebody I don't recognize
Is staring back in my mirror every night
I got so sick that I broke the glass
And watched the blood drip from my hand
It hurt so good and felt so bad
Ain't that so sad
I put my all in to get nothing
That's a punch right to the stomach
Let my guts spill out
I'm hollow now
Don't feel a thing and I like it
Cause it's better to feel less than more
I lost the rose and now I'm just the thorns
A losing game but who is keeping score?
I'm trying my hardest
To find light in the darkness
But my head is just clouded by a storm
Is there more to this?
Cause I'm losing my vision
Stuck in life of repetition
I think maybe there's a sickness in my mind
I'm destructive by design
I don't want to care at all
Honestly I've had enough
Push me to the edge
And I don't think I'll get back up
Ripped my heart out of my chest
And then I emptied out my lungs
Every shot I took I missed
Cause all I got is bad luck god damn
I can never relax
Overtired this caffeine is shaking my hands
I'm crying while I type this
A flight risk I hate that I'm like this
I'm making loud music for when it gets silent
I'm trying
I'm doing my best but I'd be lying
If someone's lowest wasn't more than my highest
Addicted to this
I guess I'm one track minded
I'm self destructive but at least I designed it
But at least I designed it
I'm trying my hardest
To find light in the darkness
But my head is just clouded by a storm
Is there more to this?
Cause I'm losing my vision
Stuck in life of repetition
I think maybe there's a sickness in my mind
I'm destructive by design