Eighteen

I suck the wind through my teeth as courage washes away
And what I couldn't forget temporarily erased
Permanent lines in this little world I made
I wanted an out, it brings me so much shame

The small sweet euphoric release, I'm feeling stress free
I'm finally at ease, sharp stings to appease
So please shut up, my feelings are not yours
I'm tired of these labels, I'm sick of these people

Get it all out before I turn eighteen
Until then, I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
Then I will have goals that I can follow, and my dreams
Will finally feel, like they're in reach
Not everything will rely on how I feel

The silence is loud, but the noise is silent
Staring into my mind, thinking what have I done
My eyes feel heavy as my world turns violet
It won't be long before I can't run

The small sweet euphoric release, feeling stress free
Finally at ease, sharp stings to appease

Get it all out before I turn eighteen
Until then, I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
Then I will have goals that I can follow, and my dreams
Will finally feel, like they're in reach
Not everything will rely on how I feel

Hang my head over the bathroom sink
And stare into my own eyes in the mirror
I'm feeling extra dirty tonight
But I can't wash away the dirt
It hurts

Oh

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
Until then, I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
Then I will have goals that I can follow, and my dreams
Will finally feel, like they're in reach
Not everything will rely on how I feel

Get it all out before I turn eighteen
I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

The small sweet euphoric release, feeling stress free
Finally at ease, sharp stings to appease
So please get out, I'm not ready for you now
I can't feel my body, get it all out before I turn eighteen

Get it all out before I turn eighteen
I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget

I will get it all out before I turn eighteen
I will sit here in silence and daydream
These little moments of irredeemable regret
I will be the last person to forget