歌词
My body resents me and I'm so fucking tired
I'm exhausted from the over thinking the sinking that inundates my heart
But I want to tell you
Fuck I want to tell everyone
That my loathing is my ill will and without defining it you'll never see my hell
My worst quality is my psychological state
I'm running a marathon but you only see a mile
And I've grown sick of my mirror it shows me only lies
I choose to have hope that my reflection may change
The prick of a thorn that introduced poison it flows through my body
I don't know where in life I got it I can just speculate on my memories
The world is so big and so bright but I'm weighted down
I just wanted to invigorate some people for fucking once in my life
One last time I'm going to spill these words from my heart and we'll see who notices
I always envision my life crumbling and I know that if it ever does there's only so much I can do to stop it
What if I can't save myself or the ones I love
What if everything I'm doing now is the wrong choice
I'm sorry to all of my friends
I'm sorry to all of my family
I'm sorry to my ex girlfriends
I'm sorry to every fucking person I met
If you knew me you'd see I dwell on everything
If you understood me you'd see I take the blame
If you only knew how much I cry
I swear there's just some days I really want to fucking die
Catastrophe that's the result of me digging in my mind
Sustaining the pain from every decision I'm making
I want to end it I want it to fade away
I need a break from catastrophizing and realizing I don't possess the qualities of that charming boy I once was