Defective

I don't spend time with my friends
I don't know why
It's like I don't feel connected
I must be defective

I've been stuck in my bed
For quite some time
And I still don't feel rested
I must be defective

My days are chock-full of me myself and I
Going in circles playing question and reply
Searching for something to believe I can't deny
I feel confused and at a loss from time to time

I need to take these contacts out my eye, lately been feeling dry
Basically what I'm saying, this ain't no reason to cry
Just as soon as I say that, my stresses, they multiply
Try to keep them inside, while they eat me alive

I know bad people lie, I lie, we not that different
If they won't help me when I need them then what good is a friend
Why put any stock into bonds that don't pay dividends
Only thinking gains, there I go, back on that shit again

416 numbers locked in my phone
Days like this can convince me I'm all alone
Pacing this oversized cage I call a home
Just a bird and his burdens singing this song

I don't spend time with my friends
I don't know why
It's like I don't feel connected
I must be defective

I've been stuck in my bed
For a long time
And I still don't feel rested
I guess I must be defective

Too busy to play today, too busy to take a break
Too busy to use this app I keep scrolling for saying hey
I did like 8 months ago and you didn't respond
That makes two times in a row, I guess that's just what we on

I know you see these announcements, I got so much on plate
I'm busy chasing success, no time for chasing a flake
Chasing the ghost of our friendship, I'll let it lay in its grave
Buried under this happy expression that's on my face

Yeah that story would be funny if you'd thought to invite me
Wish I could tell you that, but it might come back to bite me
This side of me is unsightly, can't be showing it lightly
They say love doesn't cost, but I think some of it's pricey

I tread light on my path, always stay mindful of others
Get insight from my sisters, share a laugh with my brothers
Every time that we speak, I tell all my people I love them
Then I ask myself what love is

I don't spend time with my friends
(Don't call my friends)
I don't know why
(I can't pretend)
It's like I don't feel connected
(Why do I feel this way)
I must be defective

I've been stuck in my bed
(Stuck in my bed with)
For a long time
(This never ending)
And I still don't feel rested
(Am I defective?)
I guess I must be defective
(I'm not defective)