歌词
I struggle to find reasons to live
I think I've given all I can give
And as fucked as it sounds
I wanted you to love me more than you loved yourself
I was the one who was wrong
I was too fucking self-involved
It was me all along
I'm the reason you're gone
I pushed you away
I was so fucking scared you'd leave
I pulled you under with me
I preferred you in misery
Now I'm laying in the wake
Of all the selfish decisions that I made
Like the times I always made you feel as if it was you in the wrong
Instead of enjoying the love that you gave
I chose to throw it right back at your face
I hope you believe me when I say
You are so much fucking better than me
And I want you to know
This was never who I wanted to be
There's still a part of me
Who can't believe you moved on so quickly
I know I dragged you down
With insecurities and crippling doubt
I pulled you underneath
It was so fucking cowardly
I thought that if you were happy
You would never see anything in me
I struggle to find reasons to live
I think I've given all I can give
And as fucked as it sounds
I think you're better off without
Now I'm laying in the wake
Of all the selfish decisions that I made
Like how I wanted you to hurt the same way that I always did
Instead of enjoying the love that you gave
I chose to throw it right back at your face
I dug my own grave in the hope that you would prove me right and just leave
Six foot deep
Six foot deep
I'm buried underneath
I'm buried underneath
In spite of everything I say
I still wish you would hurt as much as me
I thought it would be okay
You would never leave and you'd come back again
I'm sorry for who I became
I was so fucking scared you'd leave
I pulled you under with me
I preferred you in misery
Now I'm laying in the wake
Of all the selfish decisions that I made
And I'm so fucking sorry for every single word that I ever said
Instead of enjoying the love that you gave
I chose to throw it right back at your face
I just couldn't deal with the thought that you would be better off without me