This Is Where The Fun Begins

I may be smiling on the outside
But I'm dying on the inside
I can tell you that I'm alright
But I know it's all lies

This is where the fun begins I'm
Fighting off all the voices inside
Testing out the patience I have spare
Ripping out chunks of my own hair
I'm feeling super low
I don't know where to go
I'm confiding in my beer
And nothing's really clear
No I'm not okay
I can't come out and play
Cause when you look at me
I may be

Smiling on the outside
But I'm dying on the inside
I can tell you that I'm alright
But I know it's all lies
Just a drop in to the ocean
When we lost all motion
I can tell you that I'm just fine
But I know my own mind

Today is a brand new day
It's sunny outside now what do you say I
Stay indoors and don't say a word
Or leave my bed and walk with the herd
It's time for me to go
I'm done with feeling low
This emotion is driving me crazy
I'm packing up my things
My hat and my earrings
I need to make a change for me
Before I lose my mind

I'm smiling on the outside
But I'm dying on the inside
I can tell you that I'm alright
But I know it's all lies
Just a drop in to the ocean
When we lost all motion
I can tell you that I'm just fine
But I know my own mind

You changed my life
For better or worse
(You showed me my life's worth living)
(You found the parts that were missing)
I'm coming home
I'm no longer alone
(You showed me my life's worth living)
(You found the parts that were missing)

I'm smiling on the outside
Not dying on the inside
For the first time in my life
I can tell you I'm
Fucking fine
Drop in to the ocean
I've regained all motion
I can tell you that I'm alright
Cause we know I'm just fine
I'm smiling on the outside
(This is where the fun begins, I'm)
Not dying on the inside
(Fighting off all the voices inside)
For the first time in my life
(Testing out the patience I have spare)
I can tell you, I'm
(Ripping out chunks of my own hair)
Fucking Fine
(I'm feeling super low, I don't know where to go)
(I'm confiding in my beer and nothing's really clear)
Fucking Fine
(No I'm not okay, I can't come out and play)
(Cos when you look at me)
I'm fucking fine