歌词
Katy was his friend first
We met as they carried his casket to the hearse
I learned to sleep through the pain
I'm numb in the sun & I cry in the rain
Oh whoa
So we met in the lot of a 7-Eleven
For Slurpees and existential chats on heaven
Katy looked at me with ambivalence
And a heart torn apart by the strife
She asked, "Zach, do you think Tom went to hell?"
Said, "He'd been living there for most of his life"
I miss him madly though he never left
I can see him when I look her in the eye
She said, "At least I don't wanna die anymore
At least I don't wanna die"
Autumn was never my type
Our love was so deep but never lived up to the hype
Now I don't sleep much at all
I'm living off of ramen and cheap alcohol
Oh no
So we met in the driveway of her parents' house
I still cling to every curse that fell out of her mouth
Autumn looked at me with indifference
And a stare that could cut like a knife
She said, "Zach, you can honestly go to hell"
Said, "I've been living there for most of my life"
Things were bad then but they're better now
We don't talk and I'm not sure why
But at least I don't wanna die anymore
Yeah, at least I don't wanna die
I've seldom felt alright
My thoughts are as dark as my future is bright
But if you can't love yourself
How the hell could you ever love anyone else?
Oh whoa
So I made some changes, did 'em all for me
Unlike therapy, the best things in life are free
I can feel my own significance
Without adoring fans, a husband, or a wife
Now that I'm in a place that burns less than hell
I hope to stay here for the rest of my life
As I write these words down with sincerity
I feel myself starting to break down and cry
But I'm just happy cause at least I don't wanna die anymore
Yeah, at least I don't wanna die