Vent

My obsession is i always chase Perfection but nothing's perfect
So I'm always met with my Own deception
I've done so much reflecting i Forgot my own reflection
Nowadays it's so hard to find a Real Connection
Heavily indulged with Emotions
Conflicted with the pain of Remembrance
And love potions
Was taught lessons from Women who recorded my Attendance
Physically I was present my Mind
Went through alot of Commotions
But now I'm focused
Crossing items off my bucket List and accomplishing goals
Nothing past me goes Unnoticed
It's the path that i chose
Can't walk a mile in my shoes And they say that they feel my Soul
No time for back and forth Arguments like we're playing Tennis
And definitely no time for People who be feeling jealous
The end goal is health and Wealth that's the real premise
Working hard so i can show My parents the view of venice
I have a voice that can barely Hit a C-note
But when i make that hit i Should only really see notes
A room of mirrors is the only Time i see goats
A room of competition only Time i see Ghosts
So tell the world bring it on And bring it all
Their hate is music to my ears And we can all Sing along
To the people i cut ties with i Hope you know it's you not me
You treated me like shit when i Treated you like family
I learned my lesson now so i Happily exit your Life
Don't come back running cause I won't do this twice
I find peace in quiet
Here's my mind take a peak Inside it
I've been hearing voices trying to keep them Quiet
Like a tyrant they're trying to
Find peace with Violence
Hardly ever sleep i just need the Silence
And if you speak to me you Better speak with kindness
And you better speak on my Name with some respect Behind it
Cause I'm a good guy trust me That's what i want to be
But I'm a gangster too trust me When i need to be
You think I'm dissing you but Honestly I'm only helping
My intention's pure but you're The one who's causing all this
Tension not to mention
In your own dimension stuck Like it's detention
Disconnected friendships that i Thought were truly endless
Ended up being so senseless Leaving me so defenseless
I bottle most of my feelings
And stack them to the ceiling
I wear no makeup and my ego Does all the concealing
I find myself living my life with Zero demons
But then i woke up and realized That i was Dreaming

Clearly as I get older
I feel myself get colder
At one time I needed a Shoulder
But now I'm a whole ass Boulder
Preach like a pastor
Carry weight like a soldier
If things get worse than this I'll Turn hell to my Utopia
I feel sober when I'm high and High when I'm Sober
I feel lucky to be alive i found a Clover
I'm just venting I don't need Your closure
I want you to listen to me when I speak
I'm just venting I don't need Your closure
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