歌词
How they sleepin' when I'm winning
And they waking when I'm fucking up?
Reminiscing 'bout the shit I had to do for them to give a fuck
I would end my pain but I can't stand the thought of giving up
My fear of the bottom always got a nigga filling up
I can't see my brother but I swear to God I feel him near
I couldn't believe he left this world the day he disappeared
Clouding up my mind these days, I ain't seeing clear
And I know it's just the first of the month
But I don't think I can do this shit no more
I did what I could to save my soul
Now I can't even bother
I can't even bother
I told you I can't do this shit no more
I could never nah nah nah nah nah
No, I can't
It's just the first of the month
I got way too many words
Way too many things I never said
Fighting off the urge to show I'm hurt
'Cause I can't let 'em in
Underrate my worth and all that work that I been putting in
They told me do my worst but now I'm worst than I've ever been
That's why I
That's why we never made amends
Toasting with my demons, they my brodies, I don't need a friend
Nigga say I'm sinning now I win more than I ever did
And it's just the first of the month
But I don't think I can do this shit no more
I did what I could to save my soul
Now I can't even bother
I can't even bother
I told you I can do this shit no more
I could never nah nah nah nah nah
No, I can't
It's just the first of the month
I told you I can't do this shit no more
I did what I could to save my soul
Now I can't even bother
No, I can't even bother
I told you I can't do this shit no more
I could never nah nah nah nah nah
No I can't